Dear Body, You’ve made your point very clear; you hate me. I get it, I really do. Now please stop touring me. I have a part to learn and school work to do. I can’t smile and fake it much longer. Mmkay? Thaaaanks, Me.
I’m Back. January 9, 2011
It’s been almost a year since I last updated. When I first started this blog, it was a last resort. I was stuck in a bad frame of mind and I didn’t know how to get out of it. I wanted to connect with others dealing with the same problems. I haven’t gotten very many responses but I’ve decided I don’t care. I’m going to update whether or not people are reading. I may not be as faithful as I’d like, but I will try.
In the time since I last updated, there have been some major changes in my life. I have been extremely active with community theatre and improv. Currently, I am rehearsing for gypsy the musical and the assistant director of an improv comedy crew. I have also been working with the American Lung Association. I was on the board for the Fight for Air Run/Walk Jacksonville. I’m excited to report that we meant our fundraising goal! I was also the Christmas Seals spokesperson. That was really fun! I got to do interviews and appearances. I love knowing I’ve made an impact on the people I’ve talked to.
The main source of my new more positive attitude has been my wonderful boyfriend. He really is the most amazing man I could have ever dreamed of. We met during a show. He played my love interest. By the end of the show, we weren’t acting anymore. I wasn’t looking for a boyfriend. I was working on myself. It just happened. I couldn’t stop it. We’ve been together for almost 8 months now and I look forward to every new day with him. I know we are young but he gets me like no one else does. He loves me for me, including my issues. I didn’t think anyone would ever accept and embrace my health issues the way he does. He amazes me everyday. <3
I’m not really sure what else to say right now. There is so much that happened since my last post that I’m not really sure where to begin. I’ve been healthier than I was. Stayed out of the hospital, for the most part. & I’ve been living a pretty full life.
Do I still have my health issues? Yes.
Do I still have my bad days? Yes.
Do I let it stop me from living my life? Absolutely not.
Hope to hear from anyone reading this. I’ll update again soon. xo
Doctor, doctor. February 3, 2010
Give Me the News. LOL : D
So, I just got home from the doctor. He didn’t have much to say. Basically, he is well aware that there isn’t much more he can do. My body is going to do what it wants. We have to try to control it the best we can and accept the fact that things are always going to be great. As frustrating as that is, I’m glad that he realizes it. I HATE doctors who claim they have all the answers. They think they can make everyone better but that’s not the way the world works. Some people just aren’t meant to be healthy 100% of the time.
My grandma is downstairs making me homemade chocolate chip cookies. Gluten and Dairy Freee. I really hope they are good. I haven’t had a good Chocolate Chip Cookie is a long time. I will keep you posted on how they turn out. Haha: )
Plan for the rest of the day; School work. Then; Dinner, Shopping, Mani-Pedi with Mommy and Grandma. It should be pretty great!
Sleeeep, Pleasee? February 3, 2010
Mmkay, so I didn’t sleep last night. At all. I did breathing treatment after breathing treatment. Hit the inhaler in between treatments. Tried EVERYTHING & nothing cleared things up enough to sleep. I’m not sure if it’s really my body that isn’t allowing me to sleep. My mind races at night. I’m always scared my PulseOx isn’t going to go off. I’m afraid that my levels will drop in the middle of the night and I won’t wake up. When I don’t feel well, I will drift off and then wake myself back up. Idk. I have been running off coffee and mountain dew for a week now.
Tomorrow is Shots Day! Woooohoooo. 
I’m so glad too. I feel SO much better after my shots.
Not only am I getting shots tomorrow, but I have appointments with the doctors about the cruise. I’m going on a cruise on Friday. I’m excited, BUT extremely nervous. I have never been on one. I’m worried that I will end up deadly ill on a boat in the middle of no where. My mom keeps telling me that I don’t need to worry, that everything will be just fine but I don’t really believe her. She won’t be the one to get sick. No one else in my family EVER gets sick. It is always me. Story of my life. I’m really not sure that being on a boat with 840324802 people is gonna be the best idea but I want to try. It will be my first real trip in a long whilee. Well..other then going home to see my family in Iowa or going to the National Jewish Hospital in Denver. But, I don’t really count those as vacations. Neither is relaxing.
Today; I got up and watched it rain for a while. It was strangley relaxing. I’m really not sure why but it was calming and nice. I could have sat there with some tea and my iPod all day.
Then, I did some school work. I haven’t been very good about my school work latley. It’s hard to focus when you don’t feel well.
After, I went to run arrands with my grand parents. We went to the beach. I haven’t been there since new years so I was excited. I love the beach. I would spend everyday there if I could. I took lots of pictures. When I finish editing them, I will post some.
Next, I went the the theatre to work on costumes for James and the Giant Peach. The kiddos are gonna look SO cute. I love it. I have them in some craaaazy stuff though. LOL. Poor kids.
Now, I’m deciding what I’m going to do tonight. I think I’m going to do school work. I know I won’t be able to sleep so I would rather get something accomplished.
Ohh, & I’m SUPER excited that my grandparents brought me like two suitcases full of food. All Gluten & Dairy Free stuff. Most of it my grandma ordered online. She is so sweet. She brought her cook book down to try to make me a bunch of things. We bought all the stuff today so we are going to start baking tomorrow. Maybe a will post some recipes.
Getting Back Into the Swing of Things; February 2, 2010
I started this blog in the middle of the night. I was feeling useless and frustrated. I haven’t really done much on here but I think I would like to start. I really don’t care if anyone reads it, I just need to see that I have said what I need to say.
Today, my body is fighting me. It wants to react to everything. It is testing my strength. I’m hoping I can make it till Wednesday with no major problems. I get my shots on Wednesday. I amm a whole new person after getting my shots. The only problem is, the are a couple days short. Like clock work, my body almost shuts itself down before the next shot. I guess it’s much better then it was before the shots. I would much rather feel bad for a couple days than my entire life. It’s still frustrating though. Idk. I guess maybe I just need to accecpt that things will never be 100% good.
Hmmmm, I have so much to say right now..But I really don’t even know where to began. I want to talk about everything on here. Not just being a sickling. Yes, having health issues is a BIG part of my life. But it isn’t my whole life. It doesn’t define me.
Until next time. XO <3
Things have Been Crazy Here! November 5, 2009
First, I had the flu. Yes, the swine flu. It wasn’t too bad because we caught it in the first 12 hours. My little brother had it first so we knew exactly what to look for. My asthma acted up for about a week and a half. I did treatments about every 2 hours and didn’t really sleep. It could have been a lot worse though, so I’m not complaining.
Second, I was in a play. We had shows Thursday through Saturday. It went really well!
Third, I guess this was almost two weeks ago, but we were the family chair for an ALA event. It went extremely well and was very exciting.
Next, I’m in a musical that opens in December so we have had rehearsals a LOT.
My brother has had baseball almost every night.
Halloween was a crazy day, but SO much fun! I had a show, cast party, then musical rehearsal, got ready for the night, went trick or treating, went to a party, spent the night at a friends. : )
That’s just a small update. I have been too busy to sit down and write in detail. Once I get caught up with my online schoolwork, I will start writing every night.
Here Goes Nothing; October 23, 2009
Hello! I’m the Asthma Girl. I’m not the best writer and I can’t spell to save my life, so bare with me. I may not always, or ever for that matter, make sense, but I mean well. I have silently read asthma blogs but have yet to find one written by a child or a teen. One that talks about the struggles with high school (or, in my case, homeschooling), friends, family, dating, and following your heart while dealing with asthma. I’m 15 and know just how hard living with breathing problems can be. I have asthma, vocal cord dysfunction (VCD), allergies to many things (including dust mites, molds, grasses, etc), sinus issues, acid reflex, etc. If I can help one person to realize that they are not alone, this blog will be well worth it.
